So, I’m having a moment. A long moment. Where I suddenly just have a huge laundry list of things I want to do, improve, change, re-do….something. It’s kind of crazy. It’s not a bad crazy, but a little overwhelming. And it kind of kept me awake last night, which isn’t a good thing because I have a hard enough time falling asleep most nights without all of this.
In my head I have re-decorating and purging of my house that I want to do, some new cosmetic and personal care stuff I want to try out, some organizational stuff I want to implement in the house, finally handling some like personal stuff that I’ve been putting off. and like just so much stuff that, if I could have a genie where I just snap my fingers and it’s all done, that would be great!
But I don’t have a genie, so, this is going to take awhile.
I was talking about this with a couple friends of mine the other night and they called it “The 30 Curse”. Because….I’m turning 30 in August (insert fake loud scream here) and apparently, it’s a thing to feel this whole period of change and things you want to change about yourself and your life because you’re turning 30. So it’s like a pre-midlife crisis? I don’t know.
Honestly, I have no strong feelings one way or another when it comes to turning 30. I really don’t. My mother has told me for years that she spent most of her 29th year ill because turning 30 was such a horrendous thought to her. On the other side I’ve had several friends tell me that turning 30 was the best thing ever. I genuinely have no strong feelings one way or the other. So, I don’t relate this whole thing to me turning 30. Could it be? Sure. Is it more likely just this thing I do every few years where I feel the urge to purge all the clutter in my living area and change shit? More likely.
Now, I know myself. When I get like this, I have a tendency to like….go big or go home; meaning I do everything in a short amount of time and slightly kill myself in the process and I don’t often get the result I’m going for. So I’m currently dumping everything out in my brain to figure out where I want to start, what I’m putting off, and I guess the order and end result I’m going for.