Like really, though.

So Tuesday morning, I was getting dressed and noticed that I was as little lightheaded.  I thought that I maybe just stood up too fast and tried to deal with it.  But the lightheadedness didn’t go away.  In fact it got a little worse.  The room wasn’t spinning, but I kept feeling like I was going to fall over.  Devon was getting ready to leave when I asked him if I looked okay whilst grabbing onto his jacket because I thought I was going to fall over. He sat with me for a few minutes and I told him that I think I’m okay and go to work.  30 minutes later, I texted him to come back home because it wasn’t going away and I wasn’t sure if I was going to faint from moving or not.

By the time he got home I was asleep under the blanket on the couch because I was cold and sleepy.  He woke me up to make sure I was okay and offered to take me to Patient First.  I hate those places and felt a little better after the nap so I said let’s just wait and see if I feel better as the day goes on.

Well, I didn’t.  My blood pressure was concerning me because it was kinda low in the morning but then kinda high by the evening.  I called my doctor because I was still lightheaded/dizzy and had been all day and because my BP was doing odd things.  She assured me I wasn’t dying but if it wasn’t better the next day to come in.

It wasn’t better yesterday.  It was a little more intermittent dizzy as opposed to constant, but still not good.  So Devon took me to my doctor last night.

Again, I get the weirdest shit ever.

I have something called labyrinthitis.  Which means I have David Bowie tap dancing on my ear drum.

No, not really, but that’s what I think it is.

What it really is, is a viral inflammation of my inner ear.  My doctor made me do that “follow my finger” with my eyes thing and she said my eyes were wobbling when most people’s usually just move in a straight line, which is pretty much in line with why I feel completely off-balance.  The good news was that I have it minorly.  Some people can have this and be severely dizzy with nausea, vomiting, etc.     Mine is just feeling off-balance without a lot of physical effects.  Bad news is, it’s a virus so I can’t do anything about it but let my body work through it itself.  I can take meds for the symptoms if I need to, but it won’t shorten the duration.  The other good news was that my blood pressure was likely just a result of my stress/freaked out level and was mostly fine yesterday.

So, for the immediate future, I can’t bed, can’t turn my head suddenly, therefore I also cannot drive.  I drove a little yesterday and my brain was a little off doing that so the last thing I need to do is get on a major highway.

So Devon is doing all things that require bending and he’s currently my chauffeur.  Hopefully this is better by Monday so that I can go back to driving myself.  Because as cozy as it is (and economical) for Devon and I to go to school together, it’ll eventually get annoying.  Plus, on days like today where he has a faculty meeting after school, I have to be at school extra long to wait for him to get here.  Next week is our midterms so I don’t have to stay past 2pm any day.  I’d like to be able to go about my own life by then.

I swear I never see Devon worry except when there’s something wrong with me and I don’t know what it is.  When I had Mono a couple years ago he freaked out.  When I felt like this on Tuesday, he freaked out.  And when I say Devon freaks out, I don’t mean he starts storming around like a mad man, but he gets jittery and jumpy.  Every time I moved on Tuesday, “are you okay?”, every time I stood up, he stood up.  He actually offered to come back with me when I went to my doctor’s last night (which I took him up on).  Although, of course, him being him, when we were driving home after the doctor last night, he’s all “good, now that we know what’s wrong with you, maybe MY week can get better now”.  I’m like “this affects you how?” He’s all “I’ve been all scared and worried about you the past two days that I’ve essentially been shitty everyone else because I want you to be okay so that I don’t have to worry that you’re gonna pass out somewhere randomly and shit”.  Awww.  And yeah, he does have a tendency to be evil when he’s worried.  I dunno why, but, meh.

I can’t tell you how annoying it is to not be able to move my head the way I want without feeling loopy.  Hopefully this resolves soon. It’ll get really annoying if it doesn’t.

Can I get something normal next time?